Then A Bird

a bird then

not new

who hasn’t mused once

about the grace of flying?

to escape

to rise

to witness below from above

just to soar

unaffected

beyond the quotidian

to alight in a leafy tree awhile

ponder or chirp or peck

while a song of the heart rises

undaunted by threat

out of range of earthly chaos

I choose bird form for this drift

this brief suspension of human shape

temporarily exchanged

for expanse of wings

transportation dependable and stealth

for subtle feather layers

armour for a bruised heart

and soul bracing for turbulence

sights on an ebullient horizon~

Purveyor of Sad Songs

Jorma Kaukonen is 85

he’s picking acoustic with a friend

a Dylan song

I sing along

and it’s a brief beautiful thing

something good on the monotonous scroll

something melancholy too

I find inspiration in melancholy chill

the blue light shines next to Buddha

I plugged it in for mystery glow

my old guitar’s dusty from waiting

but tonight I find the strum

It was Jorma in the video

old man picking

never looking up from his hands

they know their way

I got the D Em G A sad song melody

skip syllable lyrics

something about a river

and morning light

tuned to the key of cliché

I like the sound of water’s flow

my unused voice quiet searching

there’s meaning in the role

of the witness I suppose

Even if I never finish it

the ten minutes of slow strumming

repetition shimmers in my bones

my fingers know the way when I forget

lose the path

they climb they fumble slip they go

Maybe it’s these loose moments

brief suspensions of expectation

redefined imperfection

embracing that

buzz clang chaotic shout

quandom review

reverie fossil

death misery and shame

sustains us through this

travelling spinning flummery

this stumble dance we do

stop time without falling

improvised rhyme

carry on to see where it leads

tomorrow if I’m lucky

if the clouds don’t obscure the moon

and hummingbirds return to shelter

unafraid

I’ll remember how this fledgling

flicker of something whole

made me feel

hold it awhile in sway

one more dance around the sun~

Slowly with Pure Intentions

beneath snow packs

somewhere water

purifies all

already past

a few drops

a trickling

new routes

in terra weave

listen

your tranquil heart

life’s rhythmic drum

beats eternal

glimpse

rainbow reflections

disguised as you

within a glass orb

balanced on bare limbs

fragile as breath

stellar’s jay laughter

breaches the quiet

of forest’s winter sky

unseen

like promises

you swear

to the mountain

to keep~

And So

for now nothing but the rain

in the aftermath of solstice

subtle rivers flow on

slipping into depths unseen

stars hover in the cosmos

guardians or voyeurs

too distant to discern

moon lingers into dawn

quiet light

reflects in your eyes

what thoughts have you today

what troubles what joys

what promises do you make

to no one in case you don’t

follow through

praise the winter moth

there amid a strand of old man’s beard

and cedar bark from the forest floor

hope fluttering in its wings~

To Want For

this week a man at Costco commented

as I ripped a U-turn with my big cart

to avoid collision with him and another

you know how to drive, he said

I take my time in cavernous big shop spaces

but I’m focused on getting out too

what I need vs what wants to come along

this is the dilemma

one of many

in the land of plenty

a place I am grateful to inhabit

but wary of its wiles and beckonings too

the pull of acquisition stirs

good price oh nice might need so pretty—

this day I didn’t succumb

my U-turn was not to circle back

return some object I didn’t come to buy

to a shelf in an aisle stacked strategically

with merch for the uncontrolled

half a life, maybe more, to comprehend

the deft nature of marketing allure

to acquire discipline

the value of resistance to getting more

than I came for

I don’t mean to mislead

to feign immunity to gathering stuff

I’m a junk store treasure forager

a button and stone collector

a loose string puller

a fallen feather rescuer

an adopter of artworks by unknowns

a reacher for electronics and shiny odds

I regularly check those cardboard boxes left

on boulevards with invitations that read

FREE propped against them

the hints of who is this wanderer

how I see, think, have been

have come to be

what amazes, comforts, pleases

all around exist these extensions of me

After my wake, there can be an auction

pieces of my collected assemblage

redistributed

arranged according to others’ penchants

proceeds to benefit the curious future~

Banks

she goes to the river

most mornings to watch and listen

to pray

she likes the soft ripple of waves

their song barely audible above

whispering leaves and rhythmic steps

of wanderers on the nearby gravel path

she brings bouquets from her garden

tied with wispy ribbons

or string bits she finds in the street

trees are gods she thinks

deserving of these quiet gifts

they take in talk and laughter

hear confessions

absorb human moanings and sighings

rearrange and purify

transform and lighten them

absolve

she knows

she brought her own

stowed them deep in a hollow

she owes her freedom to a tree

to the river flowing past

winding its way into the bay and out to sea

she goes to pay homage

drops her petals of gratitude

encircling the tree with blossoms

she is a pilgrim

she goes to the river most mornings

her river her tree her temple

and though she cannot yet swim

is still afraid of climbing

she will and she can~

The Red One

the look of red leaves on dampened earth

the way the little maple endures

gaunt trunk bent in deference to wilder

one season to next never thicker yet grand

its full red glory reflecting August’s fair light

leaning away from the giants encroaching

to catch a sliver of sun

its shimmer inviting juncos to alight for rest

while waiting their turn in the bath below

the shade of her wide mid summer canopy

the subtlety of her muted autumn shedding

scarlet leaves loosed one x one on windless

days to spin sway turn in improvised solos

each one an exalted prima in high spotlight

while a mere human in slack jaw wonder

slow breathes as single witness

awaiting anticipating

the last leaf’s graceful landing

a funeral hymn’s replay expected

mourned like the loss we always thought

we’d never meet again~

Aftershake

rainclouds darkened the sky the morning of our departure, marking the end of so many days passed in spring sunlight

everything eventually fades

the day before, we’d ridden bicycles for four and a half hours, exploring the ribbon of trails through a corridor of green along the Avon

sunlight and tranquility

after the quakes whole neighbourhoods crumbled and remaining landscapes fell into zones deemed off limits for human inhabitation, allowing only nature to reclaim and resettle

all stories are impermanent

the river still winds and flows, pūkeko and black swans complementing its rippling grace, sedge and flax flourishing along its banks

birds don’t mind an absence of humans’ homes or driveways leading nowhere, their songs rise amid remains of once well loved gardens and wild seed growth between new stabilizer trees

denouement and emergence

we ride and ride and ride, read signs naming emptied cul de sacs, conjuring scenes of houses and fences and children—sounds of lives that once were

a melancholy, sobering parade

renewal flourishes and we mingle with the fabule establishment, voyeurs floating on wheels among muted ghosts still searching for taonga that might somehow have escaped the great rearrangement of order

an embrace of hope, memory, and resilience~

The Past, Echoing

concept

am I or am I not

an echo of consequence

accumulation of matters

existence

there’s that photo

child in a jar

eyes arms knees

bridges

when suspended

breath words steps rhyth

um mantra rescue drum

listen

city street sculpture curves

midday highlights

numbers out of sequence

Time

remember

how basic were firsts

awkward digits shift into

music

forgotten

intruded upon

a silvereye landing

in the grass

at my feet~

Gallery of Nothing

on my vacation this year I visited

the Gallery of Nothing

in a City of Nowhere someplace out of style

I heard that for entrance

no ticket’s needed no stamp no facial ID

doors of glass slid open in silence

‘remove footwear’ read a handwritten sign

no attendant in sight to ensure

my compliance

(so did I or didn’t I? hush hush is the story)

there were walls and long clear windows

there were many halls and airy rooms

no sounds but my heart’s slow beating

my low anticipatory breath

a room at the centre of the gallery

seemed larger than all of the rest

round dome ceiling of opaque glass

hickory floor shiny smooth so clean

I lifted my arms and spun round slow

awkward dancer absent of rhythm or grace

a blank screen tumbled from above

a flicker a blur a simple scene emerged

movement a body a face two eyes looking

looking straight out straight through me

caught in my half spin suspended

was there a pause I can’t say for certain

before we danced and turned soundlessly

this instructor framed in soft startled blur

a barefoot visitor on the edge of time

wandering vacationer seeking nothing

finding new solitude somewhere

that’s still open and free~

Pencil on paper. Images arise. Message received.