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Around We Ever Flow

oh news–

radio voices on and on

timbre swell

trained so well

in even speak

hold modulation

gas prices

human kills

traffic jams

airspace bravery

economy

moon phases

displacement faces

scandals winners losers

jokes and truths and lies

spring opens again

buds on the fig tree

big bombs away

new episode

breakthrough discovery

status quo

ebbs and flows

history herstory theirstory

our vocabulary

experience in retroview

future’s in the navel gaze

lost in an inchoate maze

peace a timorous

flicker

melancholy

distant whisper

awaiting invitation

to try~

It’s Not Over There

when others across the world

suffer the crush of violence

my focus wanes

my mindfulness splinters

my equilibrium screams

how long how long how long

and again why

every breath takes effort

all serenity rattled

if my attempts to hold to the present

unravel and I stagger—

summon the spirits of the dead

whisper their names

though I do not know them—

are my actions those of empathy

sorrow for innocence bludgeoned

or do I only seek a glimmer of survival

a walking cane to aid me

until I regain my footing

step over this knowledge

this decaying humanity

unvividify my imagination of scenes

too far away to witness

horror beats its chest claiming a new win

leaking its vile stench for all to inhale

I withhold my breath

one day one day one day

leaders worthy of the role may lead

« put down that weapon

or we’ll all be gone« *

over there over here they are we we they

I listen to the birdsong after

morning’s rain

from a distance thought I heard

a peace prayer rising

voices across the world refusing

to surrender

I leaned in

and chose again to believe~

*from Midnight Oil’s Put Down That Weapon’

In the Wind

lightness of being

this is your last breath

what is there to hold back

the attraction to falling

inhale

deep as you can dive

close your eyes tight

twenty seconds is enough

time

consider options

no distractions

go on go on

give in to lachrymose beckonings

succumb

it’s a dirty old village

perpetual tears and moaning thrive there

look over the edge

listen

symphony of the abyss exists

exhale

but don’t go

you don’t have to go

it’s only today you’re on hands and knees

from your belly

survival summons

between your core and the earth below

soft winds of possibility whisper

last night

did you see the seven planets

effulgent angels dancing

can you feel the touch

the kiss of this new morning

hope and promise in your sky~

Social Scene

‘nice to meet you‘

the greeter said with insincerity

long as a dog’s tongue

‘have a seat next to

someone you might

like to get to know tonight‘

the room was hard

the acoustics adust

the floor uneven

the walls opaque

we gathered in a fish tank

uneasy with present company

hungry for commitment

unwilling to remove our jackets

or seek each other’s eyes

the experience was twitching

the chairs magnificent

the seats were cold~

The Man in the Chair

He is there

on route 53

the man who sits

on his white plastic chair

He is dressed

in black

He has

a dusty black hat

the man who lives

in his white plastic chair

He is a watchman

He is a guard

He is a marker

He is a constant

He is an always

All seems right if he’s there

He is the man

who sees us

who marks each passing day

from his white plastic chair~

Off Head

if asked, she—-

the woman without a head—-

might have responded

with intoned brevity:

« cacophony »

leaving her interrogator

either quite satisfied or

(more likely) edgy and wanting,

therefore a passing observer might

have employed quickened steps

might have averted a glance

indeed full face to hide

an inevitable smirk,

for some caught by fate

dead centre amid events

having nothing to do with them

do often enjoy the

exchanges between others,

especially if spiced with dynamics of peril.

All is conjecture though,

isn’t it, when an exchange

is no exchange at all,

when a question rises yet

remains unuttered except within

an inquisitor’s mind.

Potential answers flit and bang off walls

as bewildered synapses

there may be temporary destabilization

fear or disgust.

For one of courage though,

with curiosity or the patience to lean in,

there may be a flooding

observation—even an epiphany—light

enough to see, though just a sprite,

no longer a head

something else emerging

from unknown seed

something bold and green and lithe

reaching beyond the prison of skulls

having discarded the heavy robes

collected in the rotting carts of Time

answering to none but clarity,

the melody of eternal silence

a new formula for life~

Then A Bird

a bird then

not new

who hasn’t mused once

about the grace of flying?

to escape

to rise

to witness below from above

just to soar

unaffected

beyond the quotidian

to alight in a leafy tree awhile

ponder or chirp or peck

while a song of the heart rises

undaunted by threat

out of range of earthly chaos

I choose bird form for this drift

this brief suspension of human shape

temporarily exchanged

for expanse of wings

transportation dependable and stealth

for subtle feather layers

armour for a bruised heart

and soul bracing for turbulence

sights on an ebullient horizon~

Purveyor of Sad Songs

Jorma Kaukonen is 85

he’s picking acoustic with a friend

a Dylan song

I sing along

and it’s a brief beautiful thing

something good on the monotonous scroll

something melancholy too

I find inspiration in melancholy chill

the blue light shines next to Buddha

I plugged it in for mystery glow

my old guitar’s dusty from waiting

but tonight I find the strum

It was Jorma in the video

old man picking

never looking up from his hands

they know their way

I got the D Em G A sad song melody

skip syllable lyrics

something about a river

and morning light

tuned to the key of cliché

I like the sound of water’s flow

my unused voice quiet searching

there’s meaning in the role

of the witness I suppose

Even if I never finish it

the ten minutes of slow strumming

repetition shimmers in my bones

my fingers know the way when I forget

lose the path

they climb they fumble slip they go

Maybe it’s these loose moments

brief suspensions of expectation

redefined imperfection

embracing that

buzz clang chaotic shout

quandom review

reverie fossil

death misery and shame

sustains us through this

travelling spinning flummery

this stumble dance we do

stop time without falling

improvised rhyme

carry on to see where it leads

tomorrow if I’m lucky

if the clouds don’t obscure the moon

and hummingbirds return to shelter

unafraid

I’ll remember how this fledgling

flicker of something whole

made me feel

hold it awhile in sway

one more dance around the sun~